This time we shoot off and after a little while the lights fade away and it is completely dark. We get to a point where there was no light in any direction. I remember feeling completely alone; the feeling that my spirit had left me out here to die. This was the worst feeling I had ever experienced. There was nothing: no thought, no light, no time and no memories,—Blank void— just imagine nothing… yeah, it’s a lot worse than that. There is no telling how long that lasted but at some point I thought to myself “am I dead?” The very next thought was, no… I cannot be dead because I just had a thought and asked myself a question. Then off in the distance I saw this little spec of light like a dot and as it got closer I could see it was a tetrahedron spinning and rotating in the center in all directions. As it spun I noticed my thoughts were controlling the speed of the rotation. I still truly believed I was dead, but I knew I did not want to be. I started screaming….. “I don’t want to be dead,” but there was no sound. But, then I noticed the tetrahedrons started to bounce. I screamed louder and louder and waves appeared as the tetrahedron started bouncing faster and harder; the waves grew larger and larger flowing from the center and flowing out in all directions creating sound. On these waves were cubes like snap shots in time of my existence up to that point. As I started to remember where I came from I could see the fractals in a spiral motion begin to manifest, but these were not just what I was thinking at the time these were all possible existences from any choice I could have made from that point in time. From there I could see color starting to form with a mixture of blacks and whites and as each experience was made the more shades of each color began to emerge from the fractals.
At this point I am joined with my soul and we begin to have a very long and intense discussion. “Now do you understand?” she asks me. I was confused but realized at the same time what was happening. She told me that I had to experience death to understand life. After going through all of this she asks, “Do you want to be a part of the light or a part of the nothingness?” I screamed as loud as I could, “I want to be a part of the light” and at that very moment all my possibilities of this life exploded out from the singularity that I had just created. I was reborn. We head towards the light coming from my singularity. Some more information was given to me, but I cannot remember it at this time. Remember there were no words just this feeling of communication. As I think back now, she wasn’t asking me to be a part of the light, she was asking me if I wanted to be alive or dead.
Here are the best videos I could find to match what was happening to give you some visuals. You may need to watch this one a few times to really feel it’s power. The middle is a little slow to manifest but wait till the end.