Part 2- The heart recognizes the truth

Volleyball in the Keys 1990

Volleyball in the Keys 1990

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My second experience with the divine was when Shannon and I were not seeing each other and hadn’t for about a year.  I had another girlfriend but there didn’t seem to be any feelings there, at least not like the feelings I had when I was with Shannon.  A month or two before this I bumped into Shannon’s mother and she asked me why we weren’t dating anymore. I explained to her that we would get back together when the time was right. After spending about five minutes with her mother, she told me to call Shannon and gave me their new number. Well, Shannon was dating an older guy that was going into the military and I was dating a girl who was away for the summer, so I just brushed it off like nothing and ended up losing her number. A week later I was at the lake clubhouse and Shannon showed up. I continued to play ping pong all day until the last of my friends got tired of hanging out and left me alone. My plan worked and I was finally alone with Shannon swimming in the lake, rekindling our love. The next day I rode my bike to her house to convince her to keep seeing me and we spent the rest of the summer together 😉

She broke my heart at the end of the summer saying she needed time apart, her boyfriend was returning from boot camp and she had to figure it out.  I tried to get her to continue to see me but her mind was set and she wouldn’t let me in the house. A few months later, while I was walking into my bathroom this feeling of urgency hit me out of nowhere; it was as if someone grabbed me and told me to break up with my current girlfriend and then call Shannon.  I remember looking into the mirror and asking myself, “What the hell is going on”?  I hadn’t spoken with Shannon since she ended it with me and my current girlfriend was in my bedroom. This feeling was so strong that I walked out of the bathroom and without hesitation told my girlfriend that she needed to go home. I told her we would never see each other again, which was completely crazy because five minutes prior to me walking into the bathroom we were doing great and there was no issues to between us at all. One of my friends was at my house with us when this happened and he couldn’t believe what was going on. Well, when her mother finally arrived and she got in the car and my buddy and my older sister started screaming at me “WTF just happened”?  They asked if she had said something or done something to upset me, “What the hell is wrong with you?” I explained to them that while I was in the bathroom I had this feeling come over me that was indescribable and it showed me that the path I was taking was a lot different then what I had originally intended. Then I was asked a question,”Is this the life you truly want; can you see this girl in your future?” There was no hesitation in my reply “of course not, there weren’t any feelings there.”  The final question in my mind, “Then why do you mislead yourself in a life that you “truly” do not desire?”

Something inside me just clicked, like a piece of a puzzle that snapped into place. It all made sense, why would I continue doing something if it wasn’t benefiting my future? It seemed very selfish, yet it was so very true. I learned a valuable lesson: Lying to yourself benefits no one. I vowed never to lie to myself again. As I realized this, I took a deep breath and opened the door to a new life.

I knew it was time to get back together with Shannon.  They thought I was loony because they knew Shannon had a boyfriend, they knew that we hadn’t talked in a while and that she’d ended things, and they asked me how the hell was this suppose to play out?  I told them that I just knew I was doing the right thing; I knew it in my heart and that is all that mattered. The next day I told my friend to get Shannon to the cafeteria payphone at lunch time and call me. This was the same friend that had dated Shannon before when we were much younger. Well, I had my doubts but it turned out he was there for me when I truly needed him; he called my house from the payphone and had Shannon waiting next to him. We spoke for about one minute and I told her it was time.  She told me she was still with her boyfriend and I told her that it didn’t matter, “It is time.” She knew exactly what I meant and gave me her new phone number. That day after school she drove by my house, stopped at the stop sign just in front of my yard and sat there for 5 minutes, then drove away!  I ran outside to stop her, but it was too late (this was a horrible feeling). She lived about 30 minutes away and we didn’t have cell phones back then, so I had to wait for her to get home so I could call her!…

When she finally got home and picked up the kitchen phone she told me she was having second thoughts; we talked for a little while and she agreed to come by the next day after school. She did and this time I was waiting outside for her. When her car pulled into my yard, right then at that moment I knew everything was going to be okay. She ended her relationship with her boyfriend and we started our lives together from that moment on.

But, it was just the beginning of our story…

 

us 1990

Inseparable since 1990

Continued here… 

Part 2- The heart recognizes the truth was originally published on Awakening Our Truth

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Part 1- The beginning of us

I used to skateboard to Shannon's grandmothers house to show off for her.

I used to skateboard to Shannon’s grandmothers house to show off for her.                     7th grade 1986

 

Jamie:

Here is a little history of my life.  At the age of 10, I met a girl who would someday be my wife; her name is Shannon. I knew from the moment that I laid my eyes upon her that we would share most of our lives together. This was my first experience with the divine connection, this feeling of knowing. It was a feeling of such strength there was no questioning it. It felt like it was meant to be and even though my best friend asked her out before I could, they eventually broke up and I began seeing her sometime later. I know, I know, you’re not supposed to date your buddy’s ex-girlfriend, but it was meant to be and I knew it, besides I saw her first. Lol   We dated off and on throughout middle school and high school. I remember the last time we broke up. It was if we knew we were supposed to be together but we were not ready. We looked at each other and kissed goodbye for what would be our last breakup kiss.  I had friends in all the clicks in the entire school: the band members, the head bangers, the jocks, the skaters, the mechanics, and then I took a wrong turn and started hanging out with the gangs; they took me down a very dark and painful path of violence and disobedience that I knew was wrong. Then it got really bad and that was the last time I made it back to school. I just knew that if I went back I would end up dead.

 

Continued here…

 

Part 1- The beginning of us was originally published on Awakening Our Truth